This is me when I’m annoyed by any repetitive or irritating sound (especially when I’m trying to sleep like Mr. Bear here).
That cartoon makes me laugh so hard that my eyes leak but damn if that’s not what’s going on inside me when I can’t stop or get away from NOISE!
Noise is any sound that I don’t want to be hearing like honking and crying babies. Noise is the equivalent of some asshole standing next to you and poking you in the head just because it pisses you off. Poke, poke, poke.
Like most things in life, if we can’t end something we eventually have to tolerate it or go mad. I’m not insane yet but some days I feel pretty close. This morning I lost a half hour of precious sleep because the landlord decided to get an early start on fixing up the next door apartment to move new people in. It’s probably not a good idea to call the cops on your landlord, so all there is to do is suck it up and hope he gets done soon.
In the meantime, my inner bear rages. I HATE NOISE!
I also hate perfume, cigarette smoke and bright lights. Hell, I hate anything that other people do that I don’t like. That’s really the rub of it all. I hate feeling subjected to something that I can do nothing about. It makes me feel powerless and that makes me feel angry.
Anger is not a good or bad emotion. It’s just one of many we feel throughout the day. However, misdirected and blind anger can get us all into trouble from time to time. We can do things and say things that we regret once we’ve calmed down. Anger is not an emotion most of us are equipped to handle. I don’t recall anyone really teaching me how to deal with my upsets. Mostly I learned how to stuff my anger away, push it down and try and forget about it.
I have actively sought to become a more balanced and peaceful person, however, my biggest breakthrough to peace was when I was finally able to come to terms with my anger. It’s another one of those odd paradoxes. I really had to feel my anger in order to finally be free of it. I had to stop judging myself for even being angry in the first place. I’m sure even the Buddha got angry about things from time to time.
Now my anger is like a firecracker. It pops off every now and again, sometimes quite brightly. But then it dissipates almost as quickly and floats away on a breeze. If it sticks around for any longer, I know that’s my cue that this is probably something more than a momentary annoyance and I will have to see how I can step up and do something about it. Emotions are some of our greatest tools in this life. Use them wisely.