I keep meaning to write a blog but then I don’t.
Checking out has always been my best defense mechanism. I’m fully aware of when I’m doing it now and I don’t make myself wrong about it. It usually means I am overwhelmed or frustrated.
Some days, I just want to stay off of social media and the internet. I see the world around me and I have no idea how to react to it anymore. I feel so manipulated all the time that I have no real connection with the truth inside me. Do I care about what I really care about or what I’m told I should care about?
It feels like everything is clamoring for my attention, for my agreement, for my participation. And the more I am bombarded with, the more I want to completely turn away from it and check out.
I’m exhausted with a world where everything has become crucial and critical, urgent and extreme. My daily experience is completely out of sync with what I see out there. I don’t know how to feel about that.
I understand the impulse to go live in a cave or the top of a mountain.
I’m ready for my media fast. A holiday weekend is good time to take a mental health break. No social media, no news, no random internet browsing for a few days.
I’ve forgotten what that was like and I’d like to be reminded.